THAT TONIGHT GONNA BE A GOOD NIGHT.Okay I've been so moody this few days and apologise for making this blog emo dimo, boo. I had great fun this past few days of course, despite this kind of mood I'm having, but I still survive! Woohooo.
22nd December 2009, Tuesday.
I had off on that day and I went for school percussion! Overall I had fun cause we changed instrument and tada, even though my hands hurts, but I still love it like omg you couldn't believe how happy I am to actually change instrument already! :) Then after that went around west coast area with Nurin, Danish, Faiz and Azmir throughout whole afternoon. After that Azmir and Faiz went home first so the three of us went over to teban area to lepak and at the same time look for Anna. Chillax around till Firdhouse came, parted with Anna, bus down to clementi, parted with Nurin, bus down to mediacorp cause of Danish, bus back clementi, took mrt all the way to kallang. Half way Faiz and Shafeeq came up the mrt, all the way they been laughing. tsktsk! Bloco here I come! hehe. I played this damn long drum, which actually hurt my legs alot, but I still had damn lot of fun. Plus, peoples there are friendly, no lies. Ended around 11pm, went home by bus after that, Baby was there half way while my practice was on, hehe. Reached home around 1plus, tired!
23rd December 2009, Wednesday.
Went for work as per normal, damn tired! zzz. After work, meet Baby at eunos mrt station. Then bus back jurong, went Imm fo dinner. Cab home after that.
24th December 2009, Thursday.
Christmas service was awesome! Except if dear friends could turn up earlier for seats, haha. Okay, thanks Yuji, Sheila, Sandy, Emily, Michelle and Jovi for being my friends and given me faces to turn up this event. The drama was great, and good words as well. After service, send Yuji off. Joined the cellgroup after that and head down to JP for dinner. Slack awhile and decided to go Clarke Quay for our countdown! Wohoo, wolf game, samba chao fan was fun to entertain us. Slacked there till 1plus then we decided to catch the last train to orchard, but I drop off somewhere at DG to meet my aunt. To my surprise, they alighted here too! But I already board the car, hahaha. Went around clarke quay area for some flight, then supper! Reached home approximately 4am, tired to the max.
Went out with Aunt. Watched movie "Alvin and The Chipmunks 2" at westmall. Rated 8/10, but it was rather short, quite funny! hehe. Went off to buy lunch then head down to yishun, her friend's condo. Swim and eat! hehe, home around 11plus.
26th December 2009, Saturday.Home all day, no reason. Tummy ache kills!
27th December 2009, Sunday.Out to changi airport to walk around with aunt. lol, ridiculous, but whatever! Went singapore flyer for supper and happened to send
Baby home since same way. Sent him home then it's my turn to go home! tired.
Cant wait for tomorrow and tuesday. heeh! bye!
Let's live it up
I got my money
Let's spend it up
WITH THIS WEIGHT UPON MY HEART.
It will not go away, as it in my head I keep on looking back, right back to the start, wondering what it was that made us change. But for all we know, it's me. For me who ruined this relationship, for I never learn how to treasure all my things until I lose it. I tried, but I had to draw the line, still this question popping in my mind. Can I really have you wholeheartedly? Do I really deserve you?Sometimes I wish you never met me, so that you won't had to suffer all this greatest pain that kills a million times more than a knife. No matter how I'm going to save us and this relationship, I failed.. cause I'm the most useless bitch on earth, I don't deserve good thing in the very beginning, I don't deserve your love, cause I will never reach it.. I always got to make you disappointed, sad, angry and then emo. I'm selfish, I'm foolish, but I never tried to open my eyes and see clearly. Now I really wish god could punish me, to let me learn this mistake of mine.What if I really let you go? Would you still be the man I used to know? If we could only turn back time, but I guess we'll never know. There's many roads to take, some to joy and some to heartache, anyone could lose their way. And if I said we could turn back right to the start, would we take the chance and make the change? Do you think how it would have been sometimes and I pray there's nothing gonna happen to us. But we'll never know..I was glad I got to met a great guy like you, but another time I wish I never met you before. We could have make everything ok, but we just threw the blame back and forth. So is it love, or is it habit? I couldn't prepare myself for this fall cause my heart shattered in pieces and curled on the floor. We used to touch how our heart beats for one another, but one heart went dead.. The love ain't there anymore.. cause it takes two hands to clap, it take one soul to look for another companion and one heart to look for another heart to bond together.. You made me one whole piece literally, without one of them I couldn't be perfectly fine. True love a gift, but we let it drift. And I'm on the edge just trying o survive, couldn't have guessed it would disappear in the whirl wind and I'm gonna walk on this narrow road, not letting go waiting for the glimpse spark of hope. I know I could stand but I need someone to pull me back up, there's no hurricane, cause it's just us. Live/die, it's our love and we got to reach for the shine. Now I want to know what love is, what love suppose to mean.I gotta take a little time, a little time to think things over. I better read between the lines, in case I need it when I'm colder. In my life, there's been heartache and pain. I don't know if I can face it again, I can't stop now, cause I've traveled so far, to change this lonely life. I take this little time to look around me, I've got nowhere left to hide, it looks like love's finally found me. And the reason being, your heart found mine, which made both bond together wholeheartedly. But I want you to show me, that your little heart is mine.I cant belive what you said to me Last night when we were alone. You threw your hands up and I thought you give up. Could we fix you if you broke? And is your punch line just a joke? I'll never talk again, cause you left me speechless. I'm not a perfect person and there's many things I wish I didn't do. But I continue learning and I never meant to do those things to you. So I have to say before I go, that I just want you to know.. I've found a reason for me to change who I used to be, a reason to start over new and the reason is you.I'm sorry that I hurt you, it's something I must live with every day. And all the pain I put you through, I wish that I could take it all away and be the one who catches all your tears, that's why I need you to hear. I know that its complicated but Im a loser in love. So baby raise a glass to mend of all the broken hearts, of all my wrecked up friends. I've found a reason for me to change who I used to be.A reason to start over new and the reason is you. And after all the drinks and bars that weve been to
Would you give it all up?
Could I give it all up for you?
NOW YOU SHOUT FABULOUS. Damn, everybody against me, so get over it. Now I'm like worst bitch on this fabulous earth, so get over it. I can't do anything on this fabulous world, so get over it. I couldn't stand to be so stinky on this fabulous creeps, now get over it. And I wish they could kindly give me some freedom so I'll be perfectly fabulous, and please just get over it. My biggest wish is for me to get 18years old like an big ass immediately, like seriously shit. And then be so free like a jailbird been inside prison for years and finally gain back freedom, SO NOW JUST FUCKING GET OVER IT!Then now I got to see people's faces, what a fabulous world right? Not just one, but a number of them, even my damn closest kins, so c'mon, just tell me to get over it, go to bed and dream like an idiot. Now who wanna hear me rants more about it? No one, nobody, no way! that's it. I feel like desperately to look for trouble and get lock up, yahooooooooo. Ok I'm like really pathetic, to actually rant here instead of talking to somebody heart2heart. Nobody here what, hais.Now I'm going back to bed and dream about my fabulous world and peeps.P/S: I WILL UPDATE SOON ABOUT PAST FEW DAYS. I CAN HARDLY CRACK MY BRAIN.PP/S: AND DAMN PLURK, I CAN'T GET INTO IT AND PLURK OUT MY DAMN FEELINGS.Im doing my own little thing
you decided to dip but now you wanna trip
BURN THIS FUCKER DOWN.Okay I'm like back home and I'm so sleepy now! I didn't sleep the whole night though cause I'm still thinking of that question after hearing (insert name) said on the phone. "I felt so sad after hearing what he said and cried D:" Workaholic like mad cow today, ok not really mad, get to slack upstairs the office area slowly doing my stuffs with Shi Hui, while Ader suffer alone downstairs. Then we serve ourself with hot milo and chocolate cookie which filled my tummy. Anyway, my mistake. Lee Jie & Sui Jin didn't join us in the end, so yeah. too bad too sad, quak quak quak. Then we work overtime, until 7.30pm. Finally, we get our butt numb all the way from eunos to west coast area by 51. A L L T H E W A Y hor, wansui! ==' Not to forget, we filled up our tummy again with prata at nearby west coast area, and I felt itchy. Last but not least, bus home alone while they went their ways, buaibuai. The journey home was bored to the max, tsk. Then it started to rain! Argh, luckily I'm not wet.
(/This is my uniform and I'm born short so I look abit weird in it, who cares? I look like some scientist/nurse [who wear blue uniform] though) 
(/How we slacked our time away and that's it, not doing our work.)Okay, shouts yay cause I'm having my off tomorrow for percussion's practice which I long wanted since after examination. And and and, another yayness for me cause I'm going.. also another percussion thingy, so no difference. But still considering whether to go or not, hoho.I WANNA GET TANNED, for I don't know why, I just wanna get tanned for no reason. basically cause I'm too fair. So no more rain mr rainy :( I want mr sunny to be up!Okay and I'm smiling people, I really am. (as if) I hope he is alright now. Even when there're nobody standing by your side, don't forget to look at me this shortie who might be short but I promise to be here no matter what, you mark my words. I'm your biggest moral support even though I know I can't beat the greatest encouragement from your parents, but I'm still a minor moral supporter to support you! I don't care how you gonna treat me, I'm still gonna stick to you like a chewy gum stick to a stinky sock. Now I don't care if am I breaking down soon or what, cause I'm still gonna be as strong as the big cheena wall that never crash down and support you up. I'm still holding on, cause a glimpse spark of hope is beyond my control. 2010 shall be the best year yet, whereas I'm gonna be even better than this year! You shall play your role too :)(You know who you are, 7791111) Then again I still must voice out that..
I Miss You. Pictures framing up the past
Your taunting smirk behind the glass
This museum full of ash
Once a tickle now a rash
flooding notes,
